"If you want to live a life you've never lived - you must do things you've never done"
Recently, I made the decision to take the leap and quit my job to pursue writing full time. Some definitely might call me risky, but I put trust in myself that I made the decision.
As hard and gruly, isolation has been – it has also taught me a lot about how strong I truly am. I was forced into a situation where I couldn’t make money, I wasn’t surrounded by my usual outside forces, and I was left alone to my own vices.
I won’t lie to you, it was hard at first. I had been serving for eight years prior to this situation and truthfully, I was too scared to follow my passion.
Writing has always filled me up inside but when faced with the question of “could I sustain my life” on it (mind you, I never tried) – I always thought the answer was, no. Instead, I thought like most do, that the safe bet would be to continue serving until I could “figure it out”.
"Figuring it out" resulted in :
- Making multiple excuses to why I couldn’t leave even if the reasons were untrue
- Consistently looking to others for approval and guidance
- Constantly wishing that I was living a different life
And then, the unthinkable happened. BAM.
All of those thoughts and worries I had about not serving anymore, quickly turned into reality.
My boyfriend and I were left unemployed and lost.
Nothing was certain, and everything was closed, so the only thing that I could do was put trust into my passion.
I knew I loved to write, and I knew that I loved to write well – so I started up my blog.
Next thing you know, I was tuned in. “IN THE ZONE”, as some might call it. I was bouncing back from, my blog – twitter – instagram – linkedIN- Fiverr.
And you know what? Soon after all my hard work, I was actually starting to make money.
The more promises I kept to myself, the more I was accomplishing.
Soon, I realized that I had it in me all along to pursue my biggest dreams of writing full time. I had it in me that whole time.
I thought back to what it was that was keeping me back from moving forward :
Being so scared of taking risks and chances
Letting others opinions dictate what was best for my life
Wishing with no action
I remember back to when I was fourteen years old, starting my job as a little hostess. I was young and impressionable which makes sense. My job was brilliant and guided me to come out of my shell and shape and mentor me into the woman that I am today.
But, that’s just it. A job teaches you and then you move on. I realized then in isolation, how much I have grown as a person and how much I was stifling within myself whenever I went to my job.
A job is just that – a job. They come into your life when you need it and they are supposed to leave your life, when you don’t.
Your passion, your goals, your dreams are a lifestyle. I have trust in myself to allow myself to push the limits and create what I so desperately want to achieve.
I have so much to learn, teach, and share. Again, to write is to live for me and now knowing how much I have in me to give, I never want to stop.
Moving forward, I know that there will be a lot of ups and downs. But you know what? I trust in myself. I am ready to give it my all and see how far that takes me.
I trust no matter what that I will get myself wherever I am meant to go. After all, I’ve gotten myself this far.